Friday 29th June 2012

Hey guys I now I haven't updated for a while now.. yea yea.

Anyway, I am just gonna do an update on how it's been so far for me.

Well, first things first... ITS THE LAST DAY OF TERM 2! I just cant believe it! Time is moving on so fast! It just felt like I just started school yesterday! How is that even possible?! hehe, I have grown closer to my class and my friends and I have figured out a bit of my problems. I now understand.  
To be happy I must be happy for who I am and what i have.
Though sometimes I still try to fit in, it's not happening frequently, but for some reason, I just want to like.. get close to them, their auras are just so..I don't even know how to explain it. You know, that proud, popular aura. I really do admire that, I just hate the fact that they act like total spoiled brats and bitches, except for one, but I hate her the most.. maybe because, she's so nice and pretty, that it just seems so unbelievable. That she is so... PERFECT. Maybe that's why I just hate her so much... mhm... who knows.

I really miss them already, especially our Tuakanas (big sisters) they're leaving to focus on their exams and such and today could be the last day we will get to see and chat with them for a while... They were the first people I talked to when I came to this school and they have been guiding me, no ALL of us in our new life. I will really miss them, WE had a shared Lunch today as well, and we did a really good clean up afterwards so we don't get told off again by and dean. The first time wasn't even our fault, it was those other stupid people (which i personally think have NOT matured enough). They had a shared lunch because it was one of their birthdays or something. sigh.

I'm still going to Kumon these days and I come home later then usual these days. It's just really hard being on J 181 AND for English  I 141.

I miss the rest of the class already, Last term we haven't really grown close to each other so we haven't talked and all and we haven't really grew feelings for each other ( a good friend way k) but this term all of us have grown closer and we have talked and had fun together, we understand more of each other now too. I miss my form teacher also. She's been really nice to all of us and I will really miss her. She's really motherly too. *smile.

I can't believe this, I know I am from the nerdy normal group but.. I really wish I was popular again, I want my old friends with me even the boys. I really miss my old friends and teachers. I was walking past my old school one day and it felt like nothing changed yet...everything changed in every possible way. Nobody keeps in touch anymore we don't even see each other either.

We had our first dance too. On June the 19th. A lot of people went and it was a Where's Wally theme. I didn't go. I wanted to go and I wanted to have fun and stay up at night... but I know my parents won't let me. I don't even bother to ask them. It's just be another growling and all, they might think I'll be having sex with boys or something... All my old friends went. Well of course they went it was their first dance man! But no, I know my parents wont let me go, even if I ask.

My parents had  a fight last night too. Dad slept on the couch. I hope everything is better now.

I have a netball game tomorrow too, but we are short on players- on is in Canada, One is going to a funeral, One has quit so yea! What are we going to do?! sigh.

I think that's all that has been happening. but i won't go into detail of those. I wish you guys all have a good holiday and have fun and keep safe! =)

xx

A