...I think I have had enough. I am very tired of all this trying to fit in.I don't know what to do anymore. It's just so hard to try and get everything back to what it was before...without losing something important. I really miss the old days where we would just hang out everyday and shop around with smiles on our faces and even without money we would stay till late in the afternoon before heading back home. Things that we did like take photos of each other and put them on facebook. Share our ice creams together and have fun. Talk about school work and what to wear on the first day of school. I really miss those moments where I felt like breaking apart and you would just say something really stupid and I would be laughing alongside with you. When we were all together in one room, laughing and chatting as the days go past...But now, how did everything happen like this. When I was little I never imagined that in 5 years time I would be so lonely, My best friend she was the lonely one and we would always stick together. But now that 5 years has gone up. We split apart and you find TRUE friends you could talk to about your problems. I also thought I had true friends too, but it turns out they only needed me because I was smart and they only followed me around was because they had no choice.I am finished with all THIS! I am so tired. I don't know who I am now, not after all these things have happened and me constantly trying to change myself. And I see that it's not working, but...who can I be now that I don't know where my true self has gone too?...What happened?My life was so perfect 3 years ago but now...There is no where to go anymore.
I have a netball game now with a team I don't know anymore, no one is what they are and I am now alone again just like 9 years ago. When I first came to New Zealand...
x -A
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